decision.. decision..

There were times when we had to make decisions. Small or big they came with their consequences. I did made one recently. Impulsively. Or that was what i think for now. I could blame my hormones, my panickness, my irrational fear at the time i made that decision, but then again, it was me the one who made the decision. None other.
I did think that was a good decision considering what i experienced lately, but yes i hadn't rechecked what consequences followed. Like when we made a SWOT comparisons, i had to do that first.
I did regret my decision that time. But it was what i want. I might see what i couldnt have and couldnt reach right now. I might see that decision separated me from my comfort zone. I might see all of that memories kept me from living this decision. Oh have i told you that i'm conservative? It was always hard for me to be shaken off my comfort zone. I bet almost everyone feels the same.
Moral of my own story: do my SWOT, check and recheck every options, consider every consequences that may come up. After all, always believe that every path is what God's give us for the best.

P.s.: pardon my grammar :D

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innalillahi..

Gak kebayang kalo jadi istrinya Uje. Kehilangan suami begitu mendadak. Anak-anak masih kecil. Kalo boleh milih, gw duluan aja yang meninggal. Tapi bukankah itu malah egois gak mau menjadi pihak yang ditinggalkan dan sedih?

Innalillahi wainnailaihi rajiun.
Semoga Allah memberi tempat terbaik bagi Uje dan keikhlasan bagi yang ditinggalkan. Aamin.

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Di Sebuah Ruang Praktek Dokter

Doctor (D) and Me (Me)
D : Mabok (mual) nggak?
M : Nggak. Laper sih iya.
D : Maunya hamil apa nggak?
M : Maunya sih iya aja *nyengir*
D : Coba, hamil nggak ya *gerakin alat usg* Yak hamil!
M : Yang mana gak keliatan?
D : Gak keliatan ya? Ini yang bulet kecil ini *tunjuk buletan keciiiillll banget*
M : Hoooo iya ya ya
D : Nah abis ini pasti kamu mabok. Selamat ya.
M : *senyum senyum*
Suatu malam di ruang praktek dokter kandungan di Balikpapan. :')

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Five Years

Today July 8,2012. Yesterday was July 7,2012 we celebrated our togetherness for five years and tomorrow July 9,2012 we will celebrate our first anniversary of marriage. Hihihihi.
It was all started with our friendship in STAN. We were classmate when we were junior. With others we had a close friendship. We separated on sophomore but we still be bestfriend. At July 7,2007 you asked me to be your girlfriend. I said let's gave it a try.
I could still remember that night. Half an hour to midnight. On a saturday night. After watched accoustic in Plasma. Oh yes you were wearing that brown shirt that last week i told you to put it off. Hahaha. Funny i could remember that.
We celebrated our first anniversary in Dufan all day long. We graduated and met our parents in JCC. We handled that long distance relationship until we got ourselves moved to Balikpapan and Bontang. And after our third anniversary we planned to get married.
That was a long road. At our fourth anniversary July 7,2011 we were sat together practiced our wedding rehearsal. Hahahaha. On the next day,that was a year ago, we had siraman and midodareni. That was a long road.
I never know that you would be my husband. I never know that you would be my boyfriend at first place either. This was God's plan. Never been a coincidence. I never know what future wait for us ahead. But for sure that will always be our best.
Happy anniversary, dear Helmi Zus Rizal.
I love you.

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My Biggest Achievement: Pendakian Umum Stapala - Gunung Gede 2007

Almost five years from that days and i still can remember those moments, those greatest feelings. Excitement. I'm far from professional, found that would be interesting back then. Pendakian Umum Stapala 2007. Enrolled weeks before with one of my girl, Eka.

July 13-15, 2007. We departed from campus at July 13 night. My then-boyfriend-now-husband accompanied me until the truck brought us to Cibodas. Btw, at that time we're dating for 6 days. Hahaha. I and Eka on tenth team if i'm not mistaken, with 8 other guys. I can hardly remember their names. So sorry.

Okay i'll try. Ten of us. Eka, Mas Harvi, Mas Iqram, Bongkrek, a junior wore big coat :D, a senior from Bea Cukai taking a lot pictures of us -some photos here taken from his camera-, Mas Nasri ( or Natsir? ), and two other guys. Aaahhhh i'm so sorry can't remember them well now.

That experience surely my biggest achievement. Hey i was climbing a mountain. Hahaha. We walked at night in super cold temperature. We mustn't sleep to prevent hypotermia. We took rest for several times. We crossed a hot water river or things like that. Hihihi. We had breakfast together. I still can visualized the place in my mind now.

At noon we reached the top of Gunung Gede. It felt, "wow!". Speechless. Yes i know everyone can climb Gunung Gede for it's a national park, but having the idea i'm on the top of it still amusing. Hahahaha. Then we went down to Alun-Alun Surya Kencana. Edelweiss's land.

We set a tent there. Spent the night. Oh yeah the temperature still biting but i didn't remember anything. Guess i slept very well that night :). In the morning we took a lot of picture near edelweiss. Such a beautiful place. You can't get that close to that flower before climbed a mountain. For sure, because we were prohibited to bring edelweiss.

Then we went down, through the paths we used to went up. Taking pictures. Rested on a small river and went to a waterfall. We made to Cibodas at night and arrived in campus at midnight. My cellphone were dead so my boyfriend couldn't picked me up. Hahaha. He wanted to picked me up when i arrived. Ah such memories.

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Wedding Prep Memories

Almost a year from our July 9th,2011. Time flies, huh? Months before my wedding day i stuffed myself with bunch of wedding stories. Blogs, websites, mailing lists. Hahaha.

I'm not into detailed person who blog all of my wed preps so i just wanna share a wed preps blog that i love so much : www.what-took-us-so-long.blogspot.com from Leija. Funny and catchy storytelling. Detail preparation. Beautiful wedding. Go check it. :)

As for my guilty pleasure because i always wanted to have an international wedding with white beautiful gown and tiara -beside my childhood dream to wear Paes Ageng- i suggest you to click www.stylemepretty.com. Beautiful shots. Beautiful weddings. You could see many kinds of wedding from modern to traditional. They have prewedding shots,too.

Sometimes, even after i got married still check them. Hahaha.

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great article from Daily Mail

Best part of having smartphone is that i can add many apps to it. I put Daily Mail and oh why? Because it based on England and surely they'll post updated stories about my favorite girl: Kate Middleton.

And i find this article interesting. How Kate Middleton subliminally influence her style to the writer. Hahaha. That maybe our reason why we love Kate Middleton and her style, too.

Enjoy it.

MailOnline::Help, I'm turning into Kate!

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